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Thread #79711   Message #1446648
Posted By: Liz the Squeak
30-Mar-05 - 03:35 AM
Thread Name: BS: Anti-Depressants / Getting off of
Subject: RE: BS: Anti-Depressants / Getting off of
I'm just going to echo what's already been said, from personal experience.

It does pass, it's not easy and it's quite often not pretty, but it does pass. The important thing is to take it in little steps. Don't set your sights on being independant of these drugs too soon. Do set your sights on attainable goals - I will get through this day without ripping the throat out of my co-worker no matter how much he chatters on inanely about his bloody mobile phone and the new one he can afford and the one he really wants to get instead of getting on with his work which invariably lands up on my desk because he doesn't finish it in time because he doesn't get in until nearly lunchtime and I've been here since because I couldn't sleep........

You recognise your sypmptoms, you can feel it when you are about to lose it.... that's the time to step away. Are you working? Talk to your boss so that they understand why your concentration is broken. Regrettably, many MANY people do not have any sympathy with mental health issues - fear of the unknown usually plays a part in this, they don't know what will trigger you to 'go postal', so you need to keep them informed. Be open about your condition if you can, tell those who need to know what is going on with you. One of my managers was very understanding and sympathetic to my needs - reassurance that I was doing things right, no pressure when I didn't meet deadlines, feeding me work that we knew I could cope with..... Her manager was also understanding... her colleague, the other manager, was not. It can take just one comment, one action, especially on a 'fragile' day to set you back. When that happens, don't resist. Go back to the place where you feel secure and reassured, and work forward again. I worked around the unsympathetic manager and always look to the other two for support and reassurance.

Look at it like a mountain, like Kilamanjaro. When you look up at it, it's insurmountable, huge, filling your eyeline, the top seems impossibly far. It isn't a race to be fastest, it's a feat of endurance. Time is not a factor. One step at a time will conquer the highest mountain. When you get to a plateau, your secure place; rest. Make your metaphorical 'base camp', and then step on again. You will always have your 'base camp' to come back to, but soon, you'll be able to move it on a little farther. I can't say that I've reached my mountain top, but I think I can see it from here. It's taken me exactly 3 years to get here. The last 8 months of my climb were without medication, but it took me 3 months to get off that. I still have an unopened packet of it somewhere, like that 'last cigarette' that reformed smokers carry with them as some sort of talisman.

It does get better, but you have to take it in small steps. PM me if you like.... having someone to talk to is always a good thing, and trusting someone else is another step.

Remember, small steps, attainable goals, keep a safe place and don't replace one 'prop' with another just as destructive.